Am I crazy? Did I hit my head? Am I depressed or emotionally unstable? Apparently everyone in the physical therapy department at Pitt thinks so....
While meeting with not one but TWO the faculty members this week, I was questioned about whether "my head" was ok. I'm still struggling to figure out what that means exactly? Do they think I have brain damage because of my whopping 2.8 GPA? I mean is that really off the charts??? Since when does getting C in class equate to a traumatic brain injury?
Yeah maybe I did bounce my head off the ice a few times when I fell in Park City. At the time however, I was definitely not concerned as my leg was practically ripped from my pelvis.
All this attention to my head has caught me a little off guard to say the least. One faculty member even had the nerve to suggest I see someone to examine my noggin for red flags. Hello??? When did I become crazy?
Looking back, yes I was super depressed. More depressed than I've ever been before... After the accident I lost my health and well being, lost my ability to race, and pretty much sucked at school. Who wouldn't be depressed? You would be CRAZY not to be depressed.
In the grand scheme of things, I went through the logical stages of healing: denial, anger, depression, and then dealing with it. With the intensity of my last semester, I didn't have much time to be apathetic. I had to overcome quickly or I probably would have failed out. Did I miss something along the way? I don't think so. Maybe I would rather have them think I suffered a brain injury than think I'm stupid? Either way, I'm starting to question my sanity.
Honestly though...when somebody who truly "knows me" tells me I have a problem then maybe I will get help. Until then I'm KRAZY Heidi!